Sunday, April 26, 2009
/// 11:35:00 PM
Shifting On
When I fall in deep, means I love.. and after all the while, and long journey together, and tests and everything else, I really thought that I might just want to settle with a decision.
I really just wanted to try and give another chance to let the sparks fly all over again.
I really thought that I am finally courageous enough to give myself another chance to trust and love you all over again.
I was in love with you for all the years, all these times that I have ever known you, loving you more than friends because you are one of my best, one of the few closest to my heart. I was blinded eventhough, I was able to see through you and your flaws.. eventhough I knew someday I have already known what I would get myself into.
I chose other options because you did not opt for me, just the way I always opted for you. Despite whoever else I decide to choose, I still chose to stay on with you, because I am always drawn to you just the same, like when we were in our younger times together. But I guess you are just being your usual self, by putting others.. and other acquaintances, first. I guess it continues that way even until now. Your silence and absence breaks me into smithereens.
As much as I am disappointed, with you and myself, I have decided.. I have decided to stop hoping and forcing myself to palliate.. wishing somehow I can depend on holding on to you.
I love you, you have no idea how much this feeling affects me periodically.
As much as it breaks my heart more than it already has been before, I just want you to have your happiness, maybe for you to be with the one you truly chose to really be with, and perhaps it's time to let go of my grip. My last wait, my last tear.
So long, my love.. I love you..
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Friday, April 17, 2009
/// 11:06:00 PM
My Dear FriendI miss you.
It's really all about that nowadays.
The phone's been ringing silent all these while.
I really miss you.
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
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