Sunday, August 31, 2008
/// 10:06:00 PM
Sa'um
Ramadhan is here again.. =))
I hope all and everything will be alright, and turns out well..
InsyaAllah.
Selamat Berpuasa everyone.
And Helmi is still very sweet like all the time, he called me up just to wish me Selamat Berpuasa, although we're really busy now and aren't talking as much. So thoughtful, right? =))
And this one month okay, will be missing you a lot until the big day arrives. Because I wanna minimise my social activities during this month. It was nice being able to see you (for 3 days straight, including) today, and just sit down and talk although I was having stomach cramps most of the time..
Other than that, looking forward to Ramadhan first, then....
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
/// 9:54:00 PM
Retro Without the Afro
I've been really retro these days, endlessly reminiscing about the past.. I miss being young, and free and so naive about life and love.
National Day was just over, but seriously.. I couldn't feel the wow in this year's NDP Celebrations. Seriously, now NDP has been so commercialised, it just feels so hard to be emotionally attached to Singapore. I only enjoyed the Parade (duhh, strong emphasis - NDP is National Day Parade), and the video re: Singapore's Independence.. Wow.. Just, moving.. It moved me, swayed me. I realised I'm still Singaporean when I watched that video. In fact, I was actually on the verge of tears. Ahh, but when those two ended, it just got boring for me. I didn't even stayed on to watch the fireworks. Oh, wait - the airplane section thingy was great too. So, that's all.. Singapore's 42nd Parade, on her 43rd Birthday.
I can still remember National Day celebrations at school during my younger days. Started reminiscing more about it when I boarded the MRT to go to work on the eve on 9th August '08. So many kids on the MRT wearing red and so kecoh some more.. So enthu about NDP maybe, or sharing their sports meet events earlier on.. Hahaha. Yeah, sports meet. Back when I was in my Primary School days, I think we did have sports meet on National Day. Ahh, and half day school some more. So nice, right.
So many vast changes now, compared to older days NDP. Now that the National Stadium's down, it's held in yeahh, you know where la kan. The patriotism feeling that I usually get on NDP has move away, as much as I have moved on older in my life now. I used to watch the NDP performances years ago and get so wowed, and when I was in Primary School, I used to wish every year that when I get in Secondary School, I want a chance to participate in NDP.. And in Secondary 2, I did. Those days were super amazing.. Now as I've said, everything has changed.
Now, after all these years.. Even the whole neighbourhood has changed. Peiying Primary has changed.. Naval Base Sec is under renovation.. Even Northpoint. Even the area of my old block has changed. Too bad for me, I didn't take photos of Peiying and Northpoint, and my whole old block of flats area that I grew up in.. Ahh, sedih seyy. All the memories are still so strong..
I can remember having only 2 friends in Primary 1 and 2, and then when I was in Primary 3, I met Nasir, and he was the first close guy friend I ever had, and the first friend that I could talk almost everything to (I was very quiet back in my Primary Sch days). Wah, now we've been friends for all these years already! Although we aren't as close as before, he's still important, know.. He is one of my oldest friend since childhood, and I won't wanna lose that. Also, in Primary 3, was the first time I had my first crush and realising that I was growing up and starting to have feelings for guys.. Hahaha, so funny know. Talking about him, now I'm starting to keep in touch with him.. It feels really funny, that after all these years, and after all the guys I have dated and had feelings or crushes for, I still feel as tachycardic when I see him or talk to him. It's funny 'cause, after all of these years of not being close, and not talking or contacting each other, then contacted and eventually lose contact and now starting to actually talk to each other (a lot), I still feel the same way I felt for him since the first time I really liked him back in my Primary Sch days.. It feels funny, yet so nostalgic, and so evergreen.. and so refreshing all at the same time.
And now, when I start to be really retrospective and nostalgic-feeling all that, starting to miss all the old school and carefree days, bit by bit.. the mending of memories, slowly start to puzzle up. Such as suddenly getting an sms from my Primary Sch crush, and contacting him quite a bit.. Meeting Shikin up after all the while been missing her and all our Poly days, and yearning to see her.. Suddenly the old candies and toys I used to get when I was little are in stock at the nearby supermarket.. Going to a colleague's house lately, and visiting certain shops which are so old-school, like those I used to go to when I visited my late-grandma's house last time.. These are just listing a few. Wah.. so very the emotional for me when one by one certain people and certain things puzzle up and remind me more of my younger days, mending my yearning heart to get back to those days, yet at the same time.. making me miss those days even more.
So many things change, even I change.. Like, I have to grow up, right? And growing up, means having to adapt to changes.. But for all the things that have changed in life, either for the better, or just because changes need to be done, I will still carry all my memories with me no matter where and how far I move on..
I really miss all my friends now.
I really miss my whole family now.
I really miss everything that I was and had before, rooting all my beliefs and faith that I am made of now.
Shuckss.. I desperately, really miss Atuk and Nenek now..
Until then,
Creating more memories..
Au Viderzeen.
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