Sunday, March 30, 2008
/// 11:50:00 PM
Pretty HandsomeI'm in a pretty good mood today, thanks to u. Twas a pretty nice, neat and especially handsome move u got there honey, with ur postcard.. Ah, u swept me off my feet.
Not only that, u finally gave me all the inspiration, no wait - u
are the peak of my inspiration to finally be able to write with a beginning, the body and an ending... This is seriously magic.
Ur sweet gesture is the most romantic thing that I have ever felt for so long now.. Thank u so much. Thank u for thinking about me, its just wonderful. U made my day, and this feels really good.
Thank u once again, and yes... I miss u even more now.
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
/// 11:16:00 PM
A Box of Sharp Objects.
I just got myself a gadget that costs me $1.3k and wow, that's a lot of money. Been using it once in a few days whenever I feel like it, and whenever I have more free time etc.. I like what I bought, though. Need a few upgrades and ta-dah! it will then become my new bestfriend.
So, lately I have been thinking about getting costly stuff, I even made a list of them. It's pretty fun, though, because I have never really done this before. Everybody's got a desire to get a number of expensive things, so do I. Shopping for clothes and shoes have never seem so boring until recently, actually. Nevermind all that..
Been rather busy since I got back on my two feet to start working again last week. It's a nice feeling, but I get tired rather easily nowadays, especially after work. And when I finally get to sleep, waking up seems like a really heavy chore.. When I finally get up, my body aches in so many places, it just suck so bad you know. Maybe I lack Vitamins, especially C. I am also in need of milk, and a healthy well-balanced diet with fruits and vegetables (gags!). I am shagged right about now, sorta just completed my evening duty. But it's ok, I hope everything will be ok..
I am thinking about going to London, I have already checked the airfare for one person. All I gotta do now is check the accommodation, food, shopping, transport and whatever whatnots that's neccesary over there. The cost will be a bomb, so saving-up starts now! Right? Riiighhtt. All my more-important priorities needs to be done first before I fly off there, right? Also, I gotta fly near first before I jet-off far, right?
I am losing interest in love, in dating guys. I might turn out being gay (say wha--?) who knows? Hahaha.
Dzulhelmi's gonna airmail me prawns or mountains very soon now, so can't wait, actually. It'd be better if you could send yourself here to my door you know.. Hahaha. Kata rindu kan? Tunggu apa lagi, get set - SEND!
So what else? I still love most of my colleagues at work. And I miss Shikin, I miss Khad, I miss Haslinda, I miss NR0401, I miss lecture Group A. I miss I miss I miss.. I also realise that I have missed so many opportunities in love and relationships, because I was afraid, because I just can't fall in love anymore, because I just don't know what's romance anymore..
So..?
I don't know la.
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Friday, March 07, 2008
/// 11:59:00 PM
How Come?
Nowadays I don't really understand the people at home anymore. It's crazy and I'm really tired, of all this and especially right now.
Sometimes I think I should be given some space for my own opinions in the things that I do. I think; let me make my own mistakes occasionally and then I'll learn on my own. Haiizz.
Anws, Saosin is sooo enviable! OM-Ghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz!! Cool stuff, man. Thanks for today, Shahril.
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
/// 9:57:00 AM
Bila Terasa RinduApa agaknya khabarmu disana
Disiniku sedang dibelenggu rindu
Beginikah rasa siksa perpisahan
Sungguh anehnya hidup berasingan
Hati merasa bagai tertinggal disitu
Meskipun ku puja jauh beribu batu
Sesaat seperti setahun lamanya
Semasa kau tiada apa yang terdaya
Bila terasa rindu
Kusebut namamu
Dengan harapan
Kaukan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu kubayang wajahmu
Dalam angan dan baru daku terasa bagai disembuh
Jauh sekali hidup disini berbeza
Beribu kali lagi kuselesa disana
Tak sabar menanti detik kepulangan
Namun hingga itu apa yang termampu
Bila terasa rindu kusebut namamu
Dengan harapan kaukan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu kubayang wajahmu
Dalam angan dan baru aku terasa bagai disembuh
Terlintas di fikiran
Untuk meminggirkan saja semua pencarian disini
Tetapi ini sebahagian dari pengorbanan
Bekalan andainya hari sukar mencabar
Dafi Af5.
Monday, March 03, 2008
/// 5:32:00 PM
Sandaran Hatiku, Ku Merinduimu..
Yakinkah ku berdiri, di hampa tanpa tepi? Bolehkah aku mendengarmu?
Terkubur dalam emosi, tanpa bisa bersembunyi.. Aku dan nafasku merindukanmu.
Terpuruk ku disini, teraniaya sepi.. Dan ku tahu pasti, kau menemani dalam hidupku, kesendirianku..
I miss you.
Kau datang dan sekarang kau telah pergi.. Semua ku terima, apa adanya. Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam, di ruang hati kita bertemu.
Meskipun kau telah pulang beberapa jam sebelum ni, meskipun pada zahirnya baru sahaja kita mengucapkan selamat tinggal, tetapi aku sudahpun merasakan kerinduannya.. Sekarang yang kau jauh, tiada di pandangan mataku, dan tiada jelas suaramu kedengaran.. Pada waktu inilah ku sedar akan kepentingan kau didalam hidupku.
Betapa lama harusku tunggu sehingga ku dapat bertemu dengan kau lagi? Ketidakhadiran kau menyepikan suasana.. Aku berharap kau akan selamat tiba di sana, dan apabila tiba masanya untuk kau datang ke sini, pulanglah. Aku tetap menunggu.
Selamat tinggal dan selamat sampai.. Ingatku dalam doamu dan hari harimu. Takdir akan menentukan masa depan kita, dan jikalau kita dapat berjumpa lagi di suatu hari nanti.. InsyaAllah, k.
Sehingga nanti,
Wassalam.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
/// 10:00:00 PM
Arrival to Earth
So, how? Like my new blog template? I love it. I love Transformers. This is their arrival, baby..
It doesn't seem to have anything related to orangeroses, but same goes for the previous template. The only relation to it is the colour orange, of course.
Well, last night was really busy at my workplace. I've never been sooo busy during my NDs for all my previous NDs before until now, as in these past 3 nights. Really challenging, it's a huge test on my patience. Well, I hope all goes well, InsyaAllah..
I sorta slept while in the midst of talking to Dzulhelmi on the phone just now. It's really embarrasing, u know! Hahaha. U can't blame me.. Actually, I really wanted to stay up talking to him for hours and hours before he left to Korea today, so I can spend as much time that I can give for him.. When he's overseas, the chances of being able to communicate with him for long hours are really thin, so might as well savour this moment, right? Hmmm, so shucks, I accidentally dozed off. Sorry sorry strawberry k? Hehe. But then, last minute, his flight was cancelled..
I know I told him yesterday, if I had a choice, I wouldn't want him to leave at all, but I didn't really expected anything out of it. I'm sorry if all these seems coincidental.. I'm slightly confused myself, right now. I am also saddened by the fact that he's not able to leave today due to certain circumstances, because I know deep inside, he's slightly affected by that, and his sadness will kinda affect me too, u know.. So yeah.
Walau apa jua sekalipun, saya harap awak ok, k? And for anything and everything at all, I am here for u, whether or not u require me to be there. What's better than solving ur problems alone if u can have an extra hand to help u with it (and that means me la, haha)?
U might not have left, back to ur hometown today, but I still miss u the same. I still miss u the same way I miss u on other days when u're not around, when my mind keeps having thoughts about u..
Alrightey then, I guess I'm done here.. InsyaAllah tomorrow will be a good day for me.
Until then,
the secrets are kept safe with me all the time.
Au Viderzeen.
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