Thursday, January 17, 2008
/// 12:30:00 PM
Rock ConcertI just completed my rock concert yeah. Just got back from London a few days ago yeah. Then straight off back to work yeah. Hahaha. I'm saying that because I am losing my voice yeah! Suara bukan serak-serak basah tapi serak-serak kering.. Hahaha. Why? Because... my throat is dry lah! Hahaha.
The story's like this.. I started feeling slightly feverish on Sunday, after I came back from my day out, but brushed it off and just headed for work the day after that.
Hmm hate taking mc actually.
Hmm hate going for consultations with the dr mostly, then yeah hate taking medicines.
So yeah, so what? Went back home on Monday (first day of work) and felt that I was down with fever but again couldn't bother to take my meds and slept first.. Woke up around 0030 hours, faizah took my temperature and guess what?? It shot up to 38.5 degrees C. Hahaha. So washed up, lardeeda lardeeda and went back to bed without taking any antipyretics. Hahaha. Next day woke up still felt a bit feverish but temperature kept lowering so yeah no fever! Cool.. That's one thing.
Then the sore throat and the coughings start to come. This is normal for me after I'm down with fever, so yeah. I just drank water on and off PRN but didn't really take so much note on my throat. Went on until Wednesday, then Thursday which is today of course haha, cannot take it lah. Cannot really talk much already so I went to my family clinic and made an appointment with my dr. Explained to him a bit, hahaha peritlah nak bual, then he prescribed some meds for me and gave me an mc and done! Called up my workplace to tell them I'm on mc. Hmm I'm sure some of my colleagues will nag but what can I do? I got mild fever and a really unhealthy throat! So gotta rest my voice, don't call me unless it's urgent k?
The friend that I went out with on Sunday, dia pun dapat sama problem. Cuma dia lagi terrible, high fever due to throat infection and dehydrated so was put on drip. Kesian sey. Alhamdulillah mine not so bad. It was like something happened to us that day, till we got similar problems. Hahaha. So yeah.
So alritey then.
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
/// 8:25:00 PM
Me and My MindI caught this movie earlier on, titled Chasing Helgda or something like that. It was about this 19-year-old guy who had a mental illness after his brother's death and joined boarding school late. Then he met this girl who had aneurism and they got close. She died a few days after they knew each other. The scene where she was near-death at the hospital; they expressed their love to each other and well, it was very moving. So yeah, this guy, he writes a lot. Not as a living kinda thing, but he has a diary where he pens down anything that he thinks about. And his mind, it always has deep thoughts about anything that relates to his life. It was so cool..
I am sort of reminded of myself many years ago when I used to do those things. I have always been pretty deep in my thoughts and have always loved free-writing but I never really had a regular diary to write on weekly or anything.. I would pen it down anywhere and eventually I will sort of lose a few. So hahaha. Anyways, I've been writing a lot recently, doing what I've always loved doing before.. Maybe because I've been getting long breaks from work and that gives me abundance of free time to note my thoughts down. It's been really great. It felt great. I felt great.
So maybe, Diary-hunting here I come!! Hahaha. But I realised I really enjoy typing more than writing these days. Hmm we'll see then. What I know is that, I'm going to seriously
dig words like I used to before. Yeahh.
Moving on..
Met up with Shahril yesterday. It was sort of last minute but well.. It doesn't matter. He told me of my importance in his life. To hear these things from Shahril is like really rare so the moment felt really, important! And he kept telling me how bad he feels not being able to get anything for my birthday. It's ok really. To me, everytime spent with him is like a gift on its own. So I don't have to wait for my birthday or anything like that, when he's around I have a 'present' already Hahaha. Btw it's our eight year together! Plus, with Haslinda too! Cool kan.. Great number, great meanings..
Moving on again...
Supposed to meet Dzul today at his Polytechnic's Open House, but something prevented me from going. So, sedih jugak lah. It's ok then, InsyaAllah maybe next time k.
So yeahh, earghh balek kerja this Monday!
Hmmmm, ok then lets move on! Hahahaha..
Do you know? It's so hard to get Jablonsky's scorings! I called up Sembawang and HMV but their reply was that the CD's not coming in to Singapore for the time being. Haiiz.. Azrul is as pissed as I am but he doesn't want to purchase it online. Something to do with credit/ debit card safety thingy whatnots! SO WE JUST WAIT K? Hahahaha.
The company that I've been getting has been really nice, and so is vice versa. I'm been loved and all of them are loved by me too! Cool..
"U might not be around now anymore, but don't forget what u still owe me k. I'll be waiting.."Until then,
Au Viderzeen!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
/// 1:35:00 PM
Welcome Miss Twentyone
Finally, I get to have my hands on my keyboard and my eyes on the computer screen after 2 days. Hahaha. It's been a busy past-couple-of-days for me, so don't blame me if u miss reading my entries so much!
Well today is 2 days overdue from being Miss Twentyone. I had a heaven of a time on 08/01/08 itself. Nice date right? Nice date, nice day...
Spent a whole lot of time with my baby sister and had a whole lot of food to eat during my birthday dinner with yours truly, my family of course. It was so special, I felt really special because this is the first time I had a birthday dinner with my family to acknowledge me being 21. It's so cool and so fun. I loved it. Took a number of photos, mostly food photos and yeah, father bought me a watch! It's been a super long time since I received any presents from my parents, because I never really asked for any, I didn't ask for any this time too, but wow, it really was a surprise. I loved it too. Dayah bought me a bag, very pretty. I loved that too..
And yes, of course, after so many many many years, I had my own birthday cake. It's chocolate ice cream cake from Swensens. So good, so much pampering. I love the pampering! I always love pampering hahaha, so since I don't always get that, getting it all on my birthday for the whole day was super cool. Mak and abah, of course, got their pampering from me too. I told mak not to cook at all for the whole day, and of course, there were lesser chores on that day. Money wasn't the problem at all for me that day, I don't mind spending way a lot just for food for my family, especially since we were gonna have that dinner together en masse.. (P.S. It was over a hundred dollars just for the 6 of us. And this is only dinner!) The things u do once a while.. I know I'm happy. Happier with the company that I got that day...
The day started off really sweet, at 1200hours, I got a number of birthday messages and calls. There were no expectations, really.. So that's why it felt really really nice to just receive whatever was being given to me. Every single one of it was a surprise on its own. Especially with Dzul. Remember I stayed up late to wait for 07/01/08 to arrive? Well he did the same for me. I was so excited, estatic.. Like I was high on caffeine or something, the moment I saw his number calling on my cell. Usually he'll give his salam first before I do, but this time it was vice versa.. And right after that, no hesitations.. He said, "Selamat hari jadi!" Hahahaha k melts.. So we talked on the phone for a while, thank God I wasn't having sweaty palms at that moment, because my heart was racing fast, and we're just like good old friends, so no reason to get tachycardic right? Hmmmm.. So yeaahhh.
Nice having him around, like always. The things we said to each other hahaha feeling!
Ur physical presence lacks in my life, but our emotional existence for each other stays alive.. Although in a mental state, all this might not always be around, but occasionally I know u think of me too as much as I think of u sometimes..
The days kept getting better.
Yesterday was 09/01/08. Met up with Mr Azrul in the morning, had lunch at Secret Recipe City Hall and got home around 1530hours. Went out yesterday and I already wore the new watch, new bag.. Plus new baju and new tudung too! So it's like, look, I'm new, I'm fresh.. I am reborn. Hahaha. Macam2 drama eh. Azrul sorta gave some pampering to me too. He took off that day just for me. Everything was on him that day. He's sweet, like always for the past few years that I've known him, he has always been sweet. He didn't get for me a transformers-anything as he knows what he's buying. A true fan surely knows the better quality ones. So it's ok, actually! He gave me the scorings, good enough. Anyways, no matter what, when it comes to transformers, I will always be reminded of him. He is an autobot, himself.. Hahaha. So yeah yeah, so much info, still excited I guess.
He actually got me a brooch, with bling-bling! So pretty, so cool.. Its a shape of a swan with pink-violet coloured blings. He said, "Its a swan. U're 21 now, so its like u're a swan.. U're a lady now." That's so sweet, yet so strong. Then again, that's Mr Azrul, everytime he says something like this, that's the impact he always carries in his words.
Got home and got ready for sambutan awal muharram at Darul Makmur. Left at around 1815hours with Mak and Faizah. It was nice. That was the peak of my birthday, teaching me to be a real adult, although I might not really act like one through most of my days, deep inside of me I definitely know who I am, my limitations, my strengths and everything else about me, the secrets that not even my family or my bestfriends know.
I'm still strong eventhough u tried to break me apart. Ur presence weakens me, the absence just made me stronger.
Happy Birthday, Nurul Ain AL. Alhamdulillah, I'm loving everything that I got now.
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Monday, January 07, 2008
/// 7:50:00 PM
Eve of TwentyoneToday's been a really splendid day, I'm lovin every part of it the moment the clock striked twelve to acknowledge 07/01/08. I stayed up until 12am to wish Dzul happy birthday and yeah it's been so many years of friendship so yeah, said a few things to each other then I knocked off at around 0100 hours. He admitted to me that our friendship is a gift on its own for him. That's great, right?
Went out today, and got back home at around 1900 hours. Two dates, two cool, two fun. Another reason to feel in love. In love with the great company that I got. Although the second one was pretty rushy, as the msgs sounded as though something
really came up.. But all went pretty well actually. That's great too..
A movie date and a dinner date. The entire movie was paid for as a birthday gift, and the drinks for the dinner date was also meant as a treat. It was so cute and so hot.. Finally it's a date. Haha, or maybe I should put it as two? Hahaha. It's been a really great day.
I'm at home now with the company of my family. I'm trying to feel really calm now, but my heart is still racing faster than Jazz's sports car after the last date. It was pounding as hard even before and during the date. Hahaha. Wonder if it's all related. Could be 'cause I met the manager of MCR. I met a superstar katakan. Hahaha.
My pretty fast heartbeat could also be due to the fact that it's also the eve of twentyone. I just counted my HR; it's 110bpm. So fast right? Hmm, scary scary. Ah, nevertheless, naturally I already have tachycardia right. So yeah, this can happen without requiring any reason. Hahaha. Hmmm, so many expections just talking about the age itself. From my family mostly, and yes, also from myself... It's just another big journey to growing up.. Time will pass really really fast after this. I'm so nervous. InsyaAllah everything in the future will be alright. InsyaAllah.
hehe ydaerla u SsiW
I'm still a little teenager deep deep inside of me. There's still a lot of fire flaming inside of me. Wuiissh scary u know but feels pretty exciting. Hahaha.
So alrighty then. Today's activities and excitements so far has been a real gift on its own.
Been great all the way all along. Alhamdulillah. Hopefully tomorrow and the days afterwards all along will be good. InsyaAllah..
All that has happened today has been a great birthday gift on its own. Thank u, all..
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
/// 9:49:00 PM
HMMMMM...
So I've been deep thinking through the past couple of hours...
I hate feeling and being angry
I hate feeling and being hateful
I hate feeling and being hurtful
I hate feeling and being revengeful
I hate feeling and being so stubborn
I hate it when my emotions are all disturbed
I am going to try and doing this is all up to me.
Don't judge me, because u're not God. Only God has the right to judge.
I am sorry, but at the end of the end I am only human and my feelings can get really haywired sometimes.
Tell me u hate me or u wanna leave me. I am open to hear that. But don't just shut urself from me and laugh it out behind my back. I always find reasons to be happy and smile, I am always looking at the positive sides of everything. I am only human, I can't run away from feeling and being hurt. U've got to be heartless to shut urself from someone and laugh it out behind that person's back, and just for doing that and being that way I can tell u that u don't deserve to be loved at all. So yeah, point noted.
I still miss u sometimes and I hate how much this feels.. It feels so much better not to feel anything for u at all. Yeah that's it. For all that, u actually don't deserve my love at all until u start to realise ur childish, immature and stupid behaviour, actions, thinking or whatnots. So alright then, I'm done with this.
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
/// 7:20:00 PM
Hello, This Is Goodbye!Goodbye jerk. I hate u now.
Seems like all this while was just a waste of my time, money for u..
Goodbye goodbye. I really really hate u already now.
U are such a huge piss off to me.
Ok I hate u huge time. I have no time to entertain immature jerks like u.
Don't u ever come back in my life anymore.
Don't u ever say hello to me at all
U've become insignicant
U're now a sore in my eyes.
Don't start judging my entry, but question me first. This is my blog entry, I am at full right to type down anything and everything that I want.
Btw, several people knows this blog url already, so this entry can be targeted to anyone at all.
So hello, this is a big goodbye!
Until then.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
/// 12:01:00 AM
Hello 2008!!
Hey, its been quite a while since I updated my blog, so here goes.
2008 has arrived, but it feels the same actually. I have no resolutions but a number of plans for my future that's up my sleeves. Hmm, yeah.
My birthday's coming up soon so, hello 21! Haha, been thinking a lot about that lately. Occasionally it can really bug me, irritate me that I am growing up, no more playing around too much. As long as I'm happy, right?
I just hope this year's birthday will be memorable. It doesn't have to involve guys in my life. I'm not even ready to settle down yet, so why do I even need to let guys play or cheat my feelings? I'm tired with that lah. Just that I know, no matter whatever guy friends betray me, I am super sure that I can count on one, like always... So, no need to be glum right?
I just hope that when I turn 21, I'll be happier, sound and act more like 21 but still carrying what I am now on and on into the future.. I am strong, I am Nurul Ain AL. I am happy, that'll always be Nurul Ain AL. I will live simply, simply in many ways, simply happy, simply Nurul Ain AL.. I need to constantly remind myself that no matter how hard life can be, it's what that keeps me going on and on. I love u, Nurul Ain AL. If no one can give u the full love, I know I can.
So my birthday wish, own personal dreams.. ada banyak lah, tapi it's pretty confidential. I need to write the list down in case I forget. The next day after my birthday is awal muharram, so cool right? Both new years are near my birthday, so that's a gift on its own! That's hot. Haha.
Other dreams;
Hopefully the hospital grants me my AL for my birthday week! Please please pretty please. I beg so so badly.
Hopefully I get a big fat chocolate birthday cake.
Hopefully I get a Transformers-anything.
Hopefully I am always blessed with great health and constant happiness for me and my family members and that they'll stay with me by my side for a very very long time ahead.
Hopefully I will always have Haslinda and Shahril by my side.
Hopefully my colleagues and all the other friends that I currently have that are nice to me and vice versa will stay friends with me for a long long forever time.
Hopefully I get a job at an acute hospital or go to Advanced Diploma soon soon.
Hopefully hopefully hopefully it'll all come true!
Hopefully hopefully all my other hopes not listed here will be fulfilled! Yeah.
So yes, enough serious serious stuff. Let's talk about New Year's Eve.
Initially, I thought it would sorta suck, yeah of course, people turn down my dates, but that's okay! I didn't went out yesterday, spent it at home, and it only started to get better with great company of some people:
My family stayed up till 10pm I think; then Faizah stayed throughout with me until 1am so we countdown together also; haha.
Asri was also around to drive me nuts, cool kan, dah lama jugak didn't get to talk to him. He was sweet enough to ask me, "It's new year. Countdown with me la k." Ah yes, of course I inclined to his request. Haha. So we talked and talked and countdown together for hours. Faizah joined in of course..
And Taufik was singing and singing to us, what better way to celebrate the new year. Right after the clock strike 12am, he sang! Ah, best. What better way kan?
Haslinda was also around to wish me new year, we talked earlier on before Asri came in the picture, and and she still msged me after clock strike 12am!
Dah, the day just kept going on and on and became better and better. I am really satiated, gives me a sense of ecstacy. I thought my new year celebration would just burn, but no! Went out on 30th, then had more blasting time on 31st, and on the 1st Jan '08 itself.. Aiyah, don't mention la k, it just got better. Hahaha.
So now it's 12am, 2nd Jan '08 already and I'm still smiling. InsyaAllah the year will get better. Amin. I know what to leave behind in 2007 and I know what to bring over forward to 2008.
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
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