Monday, October 29, 2007
/// 3:06:00 PM
=)))
As I know myself and as some of u might know, I am all into Happiness, and yes, occasionally, I like making lists.. So I have revamped my Lists, and although it is rather unofficial, as it might be lacking in several areas, but so far, here goes..
The People That I Want To Keep For All My Life (and they are also the main people that constantly keeps me happy currently):
1) Mak, Abah, Dayah, Faizah
2) Haslinda
3) Shahril
4) Khad, Sufiah, Shikin
5) Nasir
6) Azrul
7) *new!* Didi (hehehehe)
8) *new!* Most of my colleagues at work.
9) Those who gives me an abundance of smiles and abundance of reasons to constantly stay happy.......
Moments that Makes Me Happy:
1) All the moments spent with all of the above mentioned people.
2) HAVING DAY OFFS!
3) Sleeeepiiing time.
4) My Bandung and Iced Tea recess time.
5) Yes yes, work too (occasionally).
6) Bus drivers who are friendly to me when I board the bus after a super long and tired day at work.
7) Any other moments that I can spontaneously declare as Happy Moments (not Happy Hour ah... HAHA) .
I might not have an end to my happiness list, but, I definitely know what moments and people that I'd rather not have in order to obtain my happiness.
There are many other moments and people that always make me happy but I just don't know how or where to list them all out. That's why I have included those last lines in both list. Kinda sums it up, roughly...
Most of the time I know what I want when it comes to my happiness... Me, selfish? Maybe, maybe not. But I deserve my happiness. If I can't depend on others to make me happy, then the responsibilty all lies in my hands..... Right?
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
/// 7:57:00 PM
Is it Over?
First, it was HIM.
Then HIM. Then HIM.
Maybe this time, it'll be YOU.
No relationships, just emotions. PERIOD.
But I've been pushed away too many times. Literally or not, I have.
It's getting tiring, annoying. I can go crazy, I am going super crazy.
I am mad. Mad and tired. From falling too many times, and not getting someone to grab hold of me. I am done with all these games.
Am I? Are u sure that I'm over with all of this? Gosh, I've gone sooo mad.
If only I was done with love, with having weird butterflying feelings in my stomach.
I might need my Cimetidine each time. This sucks, really sucks. I am going on and on and on and maybe no one will really understand.
HAHA. GILA!
I want to fall in love again. With? This is seriously exhausting, to get myself back on my feet and stand and walk. Literally my feet hurts too. Sighs.
All I want is to hear those three words. I am waiting still waiting waiting for what? This is getting more confusing, to myself especially. I'm typing and typing whatevernot that I can just express out because I'm restless, I feel seriously topsy-turvy, humpty-dumpty. I'm seriously crazy and I seriously want to be happy.
I am happy. I am very happy. I'm pretty, I know I'm pretty happy. With my life, but I'm seriously unhappy with getting sooo exhausted.
Don't lie to me, I'm not ready to have my heart broken again. By anyone, even myself.
This seriously sucks.
GOODBYE. I am not happy now, InsyaAllah I will be happy later.
I love you. Yes, I love you, Mr Nobody. Thanks, it fills more emptiness in me. Call me. Tell me those three words that I want to hear. Let's give it a try. Bye.
Au Viderzeen~
Monday, October 22, 2007
/// 7:42:00 PM
in looovee~ !!!
Sunday, October 14, 2007
/// 10:54:00 PM
Hari Raya '07.
It really was a nice start, I get to meet my family members on the first day.
But today on the second day...
1st I wasn't myself, seriously silent.. and I had nothing to talk about.
2nd My stomach was causing trouble, having butterflies, feeling nausea..
3rd Bored.
4th It really sucks to know these emotions are one-sided.
5th I kept looking at big bikes everywhere I go.
6th I realised, it was for a reason: All the nausea, the bikes, my silence.. My good friend got into an accident. So he says he's stable, but how he described the injuries, I am going to cry. Well not all are related to no. 6th, but I miss u, a sudden desire to see u, was all for a reason.. I feel guilty, I feel really really strange deep inside.. But I seriously miss u so much..
I hope u get better, I really do. I can't take the pain that u have to go through another form of pain again.
Goodnight.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Happy /// 10:01:00 PM
PatienceIt's been a pretty rough ride for me these few weeks, what's more with the fasting month. No, I'm not saying that fasting is bad, but really.. It sorta deprives one from being able to consume anything, especially to have some drinks to moisturise your throat when the weather is really hot. And on top of that, to have to stand about 7 hours plus on your feet...
In other words, this year's Ramadhan is really a challenge for me.
Working in an environment where I'm constantly attending to people's needs, and having to deal with a lot of drama, I just gotta stay strong, and definitely requires me to have a lot of patience. In the end, I remember that everyone is an individual on his or her own, and so am I.. So, I will overcome all of it. I
can overcome it all. InsyaAllah.
But do u think I'm unhappy with my life now? Nope, I am definitely
not unhappy.
Firstly, I am taking everything as a learning experience each day.
Secondly, all of these teaches me to be a much more responsible person.
And lastly,
no matter what... I will
still be
happy. Because even when the going gets tough, the tough just keeps pushing me to go on and on..
What's with tmr, doing my second night duty, and this time I'm in-charge and I'm
alone. I am quite afraid, but InsyaAllah I will be able to go through this challenge. Constantly looking on the bright side, staying happy and having a lot of patience, I am willing to go on. I'm sure, InsyaAllah, all will go well..
One more thing, exactly at this hour, I just received a hari raya greeting card from Atok in the mail. God, I miss him a lot. It's been rough for him, he can't come down to Singapore anymore. It really really breaks my heart. I hope the rest of my family would like to visit him this year. It's pretty far from here, but, I'm really hoping they'll bring me to see him this year...
So.. we'll see then.
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If I don't update my blog anytime soon again, I wanna wish Elizabeth a happy birthday,
and To All the Muslims,JIA YOU - YOU CAN DO IT, it's only a few more days, we can go through a few more days of fasting !! Yeah~ !!
then, HAPPY HARI RAYA !!
and, Happy night duty days for me till Monday morning..!! Yeahh~ !!
celebrate
more more happy days to come for all of us.
=)See? All the festivities, or important days usually begins with Happy ---day. So treat each day like an important day and InsyaAllah u'll stay happy, always. When u look at the mirror when u're 50, u'll still look like u're only 15!
=PThe more u smile, I'm sure the less wrinkles there'll be on ur face.
I'll still stay happy, and I'll continue to smile with each passing day. I won't let anyone or anything destroy it. This is my life, if no one can love me fully, at least I know I can..
Until then,
Au Viderzeen.
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