Forgive me if I ruined your happiness.
I wanted to keep it to myself, but perhaps it was just one of those times when my feelings took over me.

I'm sorry.
I still care, and yes, you mean a lot to me.
All these while, I've never lied to u when I confess how I feel, about u...
And that's the truth.

Until Later,
Au Viderzeen.

Kehadiran dirimu menyinarikan semula hatiku.

Kaulah segalanya,
yang menyinar hidupku, kasih
Hanya satunya yang ku cintai

Cintaku padamu, ikhlas sejati.

The past couple of days was niice.

On Friday (15.04.05) was the last paper for the semester. Heck if I'll be taking Supp paper for bio in later days. Yesterday was the last paper, and it was fiiine. HS1029 was such a cupcake. Haha.. Such a pleasant paper. Honestly..
Then I had rehearsal with some of the acting crew for today's performance at 11.30am. Some of my gang mates had their lunches before that. I wasn't hungry yet, though.
Next, we headed over to LTK-2 for a brief rehearsal, then to the Auditorium. Madam Wong, my mentor, and Madam Chua, my skills lecturer, treated us all to McDonald's. Wee.. It was awesome, but I didn't took advantage of that lah. I wasn't that hungry, so I just ordered Fillet-O-Fish and shared a medium coke with Jamillah and Shikin.
After our break, we reported for duty again that afternoon. Man, I stumbled on my script! I forgot my lines!! Earrgghhh!! Wah..
So, news from some of my teammates = "We're gonna end our rehearsal at 4pm", but biish.. Earlier than that.
I had a lot of fun. They were a bunch of really sporting friends. I repeat.. I had fun. *winks~!**

Then met up with Brad Pitt. =) =)
This part secret lah.

Today, Saturday (16.04.05) is NYP-SHS 2005/2006 Batch's Orientation. Kept contacting Pathma and Farah, but in the end, we didn't meet. Bah~. Despite that, I knew they saw me, eventhough it wasn't for vice versa. Why? Because I was on stage lah. I acted with the bunch of friends I wrote about earlier on. We did a great job. Good work, team. Thanks very much, even the AV Gang and both Madam Chua and Madam Wong. It wouldn't have went smoothly without ya'll. Terrifyingly Terrific. Haha.. Why I said that? It's due to the fact that we were a bomb just now, when all time during rehearsals we kept 'falling'. Not failing. Just fell here and there. =P Hey, we stood up straight just now, didn't we? I can say, NR0401 is off the hiss! Huzzaahh!!!
Even Mr J was nice to me. He's been nice. And I'm glad he has. I don't wanna lose him as a friend, eventhough we had a pretty rough time with each other not so long ago. =)
And ya, when Mr Green struts his stuff, I give it with much salutations.

Yeah, and then, me and Shikin head over to AH for a while. That's it lah, actually.

I had a good time. I don't want anyone to put any salt on any of my wound, cause right now, my wound has been partly healed with the things that has happened in these 2 days. Things that has put many smiles on my face. Not that on other days I don't smile when nice things happen, like when Brad Pitt starts to tease me and I tease him back (hehe..), but these 2 days are just those few days of fun that's really worth remembering.

I'm sharing my joy with you, because many of you have shared yours with me.
I'm happy I smiled.

And since ISP and VTPs are here, now I'm off to do what I like most.
Writing. And composing more poems.
My inspiration? *winks* *winks* Ask me if you're curious, but I won't promise you that I'll tell.
Hehe.. =P

Until Later,
Au Viderzeen.

Ain, Out. =P

Ok, so I cheated.
I didn't want to take a nap just now, but I was so tired..
I slept. Hehe..

Thanks, dear. For the note.
It made my headache a little better than before. (=
Thank you.. Hehe..

Bio paper was a head-bang. That tough ah?
To me, kinda.
I'm so upset. I studied so much, and.. bah~...
So Supp paper, here I come.

Aiyo, why do u keep pestering ah? It's not fun le, raider.
HAH! He dumped you, what..! I didn't steal him. I don't know what's your motive by saying all these stuffs... Haizz..
Hidung tak mancung, pipi tersorong-sorong..
Tuh kalau kau faham bahasa Melayu ah. Or probably you're just a boy who's trying to play people out. Gay? I'm not entertained lah. Girl, or boy.. Whoever you are, Angelina Jolie punya cerita tuh cerita luar lah. We're just having fun together, and you want to act serious like that. Aku malas nak layan, k. Tepuk dada, tanya selera.

There's another rehearsal tomorrow. Final rehearsal. Saturday big day. Tired seh. Just got home 20 minutes ago. Rushed lunch, and after this I have to get my priorities straight. Hmm, study study study..

I'm exhausted, my back aches, I want to get some sleep.. But I can't. So much work to do.
Alright then. Need to get my work done now.

Until Later,
Au Viderzeen.

Ain, Out.

The time now is 07:32 hours.
I'm having breakfast now. Butter cake and a cup of coffee to pep me up.

Woke up at around 06:30 hours and did the usual morning prayers. After prayer ended I felt so hungry. Takut gastric seh. Dah lah tadi malam tak makan.
Actually eh, for the past few days, despite the fact that I might be hungry, I don't seem to want to eat. Oklah, don't say don't want, just didn't seem to have the appetite. Bila dah betul-betul lapar baru makan.

And it isn't just the exams that's making me feel this way. There's got to be another reason. It's not for me to know, for you to find out. It's more like, let's find it together. =P

Early early morning just now, at 00:18:40 hours (time from my phone), Brad Pitt wished me good night. Haha.. And I wished back a few minutes later. Sibuk lah awak, Brad Pitt. Disturb my beauty sleep only. Tersentak dibuatnya. Bish! Hehe.. (Wah, Brad Pitt leh faham Bahasa Melayu!)

Then a couple of couples later, still in the wee hours of that morning, I kinda dreamt about Brad Pitt. I couldn't really recall what I dreamt, but I saw him there in my thoughts.. And I woke up around 03:25 hours right after those dreams. Tiba-tiba lepas mimpi tuh, Ain rasa tak sedap hati plak. Terus terfikirkan Brad Pitt. Risau pun ada ah.. Tu ah terus sms Brad Pitt. Ni masih rasa tak sedap hati gak. Maybe this time, I have these feelings because I'm drinking coffee. There's caffeine in it, right? Caffeine can make you feel nervous, like what I'm having right now. But seriously ah, thinking why I'm feeling this way. I hope my dear friend Brad Pitt is alright.. I hope he'll give me a message, or call me once he sees this, so that I can know how he's doing.

Ain, Out.

Until Later,
Au Viderzeen.

Honey. Adorable. Fantastic. Interesting. Darling. Zooooommmm...!!
You remind me of a boy that I know.. See his face whenever I look at you..

=P hehehe..

Until Later,
Au Viderzeen.

hmm, somehow, whenever i smell curry i tend to get hungry.
really lah..! don't laugh at me! i'll choke you later. then after that we'll see who gets to eat chicken curry. umm.. yum!

mother is cooking chicken curry in the kitchen right now, and i'm not helping.
*slaps self*

oklah, it's not that i don't want to help but she told me not to help her, cause i need to study. that's what i'm doing right now. writing past year exam questions for Psychology. woohoo! so fun ah.. bah~ lol.

ok. i'd better continue with my Psychology, or i'll be cheating on myself for not doing work.

until later,
au viderzeen.