"It's driving me off the wall almost everyday, whenever I think about this, whenever I think about u. Each day, feels so much further away from u since the day u left, because.. because I really don't know exactly when u'll come back. When will u ever come back? When can we get to see us again?

Even so, when u finally come back, can I even be sure we'll really get to meet again? We've talked about this umpteenth of times, and.. yes, it's all God's willing for this to take place, but I am only human, I am just someone who has feelings.. Don't we all? Don't u have feelings too?

With that, I say, I am just someone who has feelings of yearning to see u, the desire to be right next to u again, just having ur presence surround me.. I can't, I really can't resist all these emotions. Do u know I miss u so? Do u know I miss u so.. so much? Don't u feel the same way too?

In my prayers, when I'm wide awake, even sometimes when I'm asleep.. Thoughts of u seem to continuously pour and keep draining and draining.. So many things surrounding me reminds me of u, a reminder of how fast my heart will beat when I see u; even when I'm just glancing through photographs of u, when I'm just recalling all the memories about u, the memories with u.. I can feel a race deep in my chest, pounding so strongly, so quickly.. I end up feeling as though I am gasping for my breath, feeling as though I am all breathless.. breathless for u, breathless to see u, breathless to hear from u and have long hours of conversation with u like we used to do before. Don't u think of me too? Don't u.. don't u get all tachycardic for me in situations like those I wrote above?

I can't keep all these to myself anymore, I can't keep these things all by myself. I'm sure u know it by now, I will express my emotions to u when I miss u, most of the time I just need to let u know. I can't resist these feelings, I just need to let u know. It's so hard to tell it to u sometimes, and it's much harder to keep it from u too, all the time.. Don't u want to tell me how u feel too? Why can't u just tell it to me once in a while?

I'm sorry, I miss u so much.
I'm sorry, please don't let our relationship grow apart..
I'm sorry, am I saying too much?
I'm sorry, I feel this way, but just tell me, what about ur part?

Honestly, really, what are ur actual feelings for me? This is irresistable, I really really miss u."

Until then,
Au Viderzeen.