Is it Over?

First, it was HIM.
Then HIM. Then HIM.
Maybe this time, it'll be YOU.

No relationships, just emotions. PERIOD.

But I've been pushed away too many times. Literally or not, I have.
It's getting tiring, annoying. I can go crazy, I am going super crazy.
I am mad. Mad and tired. From falling too many times, and not getting someone to grab hold of me. I am done with all these games.

Am I? Are u sure that I'm over with all of this? Gosh, I've gone sooo mad.
If only I was done with love, with having weird butterflying feelings in my stomach.
I might need my Cimetidine each time. This sucks, really sucks. I am going on and on and on and maybe no one will really understand.

HAHA. GILA!

I want to fall in love again. With? This is seriously exhausting, to get myself back on my feet and stand and walk. Literally my feet hurts too. Sighs.

All I want is to hear those three words. I am waiting still waiting waiting for what? This is getting more confusing, to myself especially. I'm typing and typing whatevernot that I can just express out because I'm restless, I feel seriously topsy-turvy, humpty-dumpty. I'm seriously crazy and I seriously want to be happy.

I am happy. I am very happy. I'm pretty, I know I'm pretty happy. With my life, but I'm seriously unhappy with getting sooo exhausted.

Don't lie to me, I'm not ready to have my heart broken again. By anyone, even myself.
This seriously sucks.

GOODBYE. I am not happy now, InsyaAllah I will be happy later.
I love you. Yes, I love you, Mr Nobody. Thanks, it fills more emptiness in me. Call me. Tell me those three words that I want to hear. Let's give it a try. Bye.

Au Viderzeen~