It really was a nice start, I get to meet my family members on the first day.

But today on the second day...

1st I wasn't myself, seriously silent.. and I had nothing to talk about.

2nd My stomach was causing trouble, having butterflies, feeling nausea..

3rd Bored.

4th It really sucks to know these emotions are one-sided.

5th I kept looking at big bikes everywhere I go.

6th I realised, it was for a reason: All the nausea, the bikes, my silence.. My good friend got into an accident. So he says he's stable, but how he described the injuries, I am going to cry. Well not all are related to no. 6th, but I miss u, a sudden desire to see u, was all for a reason.. I feel guilty, I feel really really strange deep inside.. But I seriously miss u so much..

I hope u get better, I really do. I can't take the pain that u have to go through another form of pain again.

Goodnight.