hey, FRIEND.

but, of course.
i'm never remembered by u, right?
i don't have any place in anyone's lives
especially yours, right?

u can shoot at others behind their backs
calling them names
that they're this, that, whateverlah.

yah, talk about having good friends around me.
yah, talk lah talk.
well i'm done with all these nonsense that goes
"we're friends, what."
and other friendship whatevernots like..
"i know i'll have them even when others go away."
"she's my good friend, i trust her."
or, especially,
"he's my bestfriend, we don't talk much, but i know we are one."

oh, to hell with that.
i'm done with persuading myself
"oh, he's probably busy."
or, "oh yah, she has her own bestfriend, at least i know i have her."
RIGHTTTTT.
and then came the betrayal.
oh boyyyy, oh pleaaseeee.

i'm not gonna start blaming myself again.
i'm not that dumb, if u think i am.
i'm not that sweet, sugar-coated girl anymore
because of u
because of all of ur betrayals
i have now grown up
i have.
and i am so much mature inside,
rather than ya'll who only grows
like what, in romance?

whatever.

so i'm done with having the patience to wait for ur call
or any sweet messages that's out of the blue
saying, "i miss u.."
rather than, "see, i did call what."
i was keeping it tough, man.
with the things u kept from me
the sharp words u said to me.

this is for u,
to all of those 'true' friends who have neglected me
betrayed me
fooled me.

if u really think i'm that much of a friend to u,
if u think i have a special place in ur heart
or memories, or whatever nice sweet things..

if u want me to gain back in trusting u,
if u're not so dumb each time stuffs like these
are thown at ur face.
indirectly hinting on what u've done to me
and what u should be doing to make things better.

if u REALLY CARED.
if I'M REALLY UR FRIEND.
do something about it.
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

i mean it.
cause, damn it, i have done a million things for u.
for our friendship.
and it's time i realised
i'll put a stop to it.

i don't hate u.
i hate what u did.
i've been nice all along.
i'll always be.

just don't break me anymore.
i know what u've done that has really cheered me up.
i've missed all that.
i've missed u.
and i thank u for creating those nice memories for me..
i do, really.

but i'm done waiting.
i'm done being so patient.
call me, ask me out.
do something about it.
talk to me, listen to me.
just, please, be my friend.
be a friend - and act like one.

cause we're not
email buddies,
or long distance friends.

so please.
if u care, u know i'm still here.

just don't let me carry all these weights
all these tears
all of the pain
by myself.

i'll really break down by then.
cause hell really hath so fury like a woman's scorn.
and no, i'm not gonna joke about this.

until then,
i'm still ur good friend.

au viderzeen.