At 0422 hours today, I received a message on my phone. And guess from whom it was from?
School.

My school is a tad bit weird. Sms-ing students their results in the wee hours of the morning. What a way to start the day.. Haha.. So, well.. wee! I passed my HS1034 Supp. Paper. That's really great news, you know. Really. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Year 2 here I coooooomeeee!!
The only thing left to do to get into Year 2 is to pass my Vocational Training Practice (VTP), which will start on 30.05.05. Yep.

Anyways, slept after morning prayers and I woke up really late, for the first time. Such long hours seem to mean like I'm rendering up my daytime talent for obliterating the outward traces of myself in exchange for mental obliteration. Oh boy.

The latest that I've even woken up is 1000 hours. Itu pun jarang sangat seh. I don't know what's gotten into me now. I am so worried of so many things too. It sucks man. I can't seem to be able to concentrate that much anymore. My mind has been on the moon lately, the last couple of days at least. Earghh. I am so disappointed with myself. For upsetting mother, today and yesterday. For letting her down. For losing part of her trust towards me. This is so, eargghh. She's my life, and I betrayed her trust towards me. Damn, I kinda lied something to her. I don't lie to her, and when I lie, it's so bad. I just don't know how to lie. Now it's like I'm not trusting myself, myself.

Trust. The truth is always stranger than fiction.

Something is definitely wrong with me. Something is definitely bugging me. Something is definitely getting me in deep thoughts.

So fished up.

Questions kept gnawing at me, I don't know how to stop it, I don't even know how it all started.
Thoughts swirl around my brain. Mingled resentments swirling around inside me like some sort of nebulous cloud, now swelling in my gut, now sending flames of heat in my chest.
Haiz.

Alright then.

Until Later,
Au Viderzeen.