Haloo.

U know what?
Nowadays, I have this feeling that some people hate me, especially boys.
And that I have some kind of illness and I'm dying really soon.

Whoa. I'm getting paranoid over small matters too sometimes.
I hate planes and the loud sound it makes when it flies over my place or any other place that I'm at. All due to the September 11 attacks.
I hate sharp beeping sounds or loud sounds. And sometimes I even get irritated when I listen to loud music. I haven't been listening to music much, either.
I'm always thinking of death, and whether I would even make it to the next day.

My 16 year old sis even tells me.
"U're suffering from nothing but paranoia."
Now, that adds to my paranoia about every other thing, including paranoia.

I really need help.
Lots and lots of help.

Somebody, save me.
It's like I'm living in a world of moonlight sonata.

Til Later,
Au Viderzeen.